I had lunch last week with a friend from high school. He also works for state government, in a building a block from my building. We decided to meet on the corner and walk to a nearby deli. On the way to the deli, we were approached no less than 3 times by homeless men asking for money or food. My friend is a pretty big guy, so I let him do the talking. He politely told them all, no sir, we didn’t have any money. The men would shuffle off, returning to sit under the trees that line some of the downtown streets.
I, of course, felt guilty because I didn’t bring my Doritos.
The first thing I noticed when we entered the deli was the sign on the door that said “No Begging.” I should have taken a picture, but I didn’t think of it at the time.
We ordered and sat in a booth by the window. Outside the deli, I could see a small group of homeless men. I’m sure they were asking incoming deli customers for money for food because most people either breezed by them without stopping or stopped momentarily before continuing on their way. Every so often, I would see someone bring in one or two of the homeless men in and order them food. I also saw people order food and take it outside to them.
It was nice to see generosity in action.
My friend and I had a lot to talk about. We were heavily engrossed in our conversation when a man approached us and asked us for money for food. My friend was very polite the first few times it happened. By the fourth time, he just shooed them away.
I sat there numbly eating my fried cheese. I was frustrated because I wanted to be left alone to enjoy my lunch with my friend. I was frustrated because, despite the sign on the door, none of the deli employees seemed bothered by the homeless people begging inside the store. I’m sure it was an everyday occurrence for them.
By the time lunch was over, all I could think about was how confused I felt. I felt bad because the homeless people ruined my lunch. I felt bad because of the number of homeless people wandering in and out of that restaurant. I felt bad because I couldn’t help them all. I felt bad because I realized that the few things that I do for the homeless are a drop in the bucket when compared to the need.
I should have given myself a break. The nature of community isn’t that some of us do all the work. It is that ALL of us do some of the work. For some that means participating in the community garden, hosting a block party or having a friendly conversation with your new neighbors. For others it means picking up the trash off the sidewalk, buying lunch for a homeless person or volunteering at your neighborhood community center.
Big or small, we each have a part to play and a need to fill. Our communities need all of us to be involved. The good thing about community is that there is room for all of us.







